What are you doing today to invest in the future that you want to have? How are you balancing that with maintaining a life right now that you are happy to live?
These kinds of questions have been swirling around my brain a lot. An interesting thing starts to happen when you really begin to dig into your inner healing - you start to realize there are pieces of you that have existed your whole life as a safety or a protection mechanism, and those pieces of you may not actually be a part of who you truly are or who you want to be.
It can be really disorienting, honestly. Like - “wow I thought I enjoyed doing this thing, but I was actually just doing it because I was good at it and the success kept me safe,” or - “I thought I wanted to make this thing a goal, but that’s actually not what I’m about at all. It’s something someone else wanted me to be about!” It can really be shocking, especially when you have built big pieces of your life around these things.
But it can also be an adventure of learning to live free and becoming who you were truly created to be.
I’m in the midst of figuring this all out right now myself. So much of what I thought I wanted has been turned in its head. I’m trying to find out what I actually enjoy doing, and how I can use that to be of service to the world.
I feel behind the curve sometimes because I’m here in my mid-30s feeling like I’m trying to figure out my existence. But - like my husband said last night - “There’s only a curve if you’re comparing yourself to someone else.” So true. This is my journey. This is my story of becoming. This is my life. And it’s never too late to ask the hard questions and to figure out who you are and what your purpose is.
So today I’m reflecting and writing this post. I’m sitting at Starbucks and sorting through some work things and my feelings surrounding them. I’m thinking about what I want, what I love, and who I want to be. I won’t solve it all today. Becoming takes time. It may take months or years to really figure it out. But one thing I’m determined to do sooner rather than later is shed the things I’ve been told I “should” do by the opinions of people around me, and instead embrace who I actually am and what I am made for.
Does this resonate with you? I invite you to become, too.
