“Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations…” Matthew 16:19a, NLT
Ah, the Great Commission – that epic command from Jesus to all believers. The thing that captured my mind at 8 years old and got my heart pounding for every tribe and tongue. This has been my focus for as long as I can remember. Discipling the nations. I mean, what could be more noble? What could be more adventurous?
About 15 years ago my mom gave me this set of gorgeous dolls in ethnic dress: an Indian girl, a Chinese girl, an Ethiopian girl, and a girl from the Arctic (I don’t remember exactly where – but her coat is awesome). These dolls have been sitting on my dresser ever since I got them. They’re like an outward expression of the inner workings of my heart. As I’ve gotten older, their reflection of my soul seems more and more accurate. I don’t just want to disciple the nations. I specifically want to disciple the women of the nations…I want to help them recognize the calling that God has placed on their lives and see them follow Jesus and walk it into fruition.
Yep, those little dolls on my dresser represent what my life has been focused on for pretty much forever. They’re super special to me.
Serafina turns 20-months old today. She’s been walking for 8 months. She’s walked into my room and by my dresser countless times. But she’s…well…short. So she never noticed the dolls. Until a few days ago. When she sat on my bed. And looked straight at the dresser. And yelled, “DOLLY!!” (well…actually…she yelled “GOGGY!” But that’s how she pronounces dolly hahahaha…)
There’s something you have to understand about Serafina. You know that snake in the Disney version of The Jungle Book? The one who sings, “Trust in meeeeee…just in meeeee…close your eyes and trust in meeee” and gets all swirly in the eyes, trapping her victim into a trance so she can eat him? Yeah, that’s totally what happens when Serafina asks me for something with that enthusiastic little face of hers. I cannot say no. She traps me. So…with only a moment’s hesitation, I grabbed one (just ONE!) of the dolls and gave it to her.
Needless to say…three days later…all 4 of the dolls are now in her possession. I cannot resist her charms, plus this girl LOVES DOLLS more than she loves cookies (and the girl seriously loves cookies). How could I say no?
Yesterday morning Serafina was in my room with me as I was getting ready for the day, completely engrossed in playing with the dolls (tap above picture to see a few more;)), and I got totally choked up. Those dolls? They’re insignificant. They’re just dolls for heaven’s sake, and anyone who has seen Toy Story knows that toys are unhappy unless they’re played with, so really, they’re finally serving their purpose. And seriously, why on earth would I withhold them from my daughter when they clearly bring her such delight?
But what really pierced my soul as I watched her play was this thought: the “call” on my life, this thing I’ve been focused on forever, this noble Great Commission – gosh, it is completely meaningless if I fail this little girl right here.
The one woman on this whole planet that I want to disciple the most, the one I have been entrusted with more than any other, is Serafina.
I cannot touch the nations for Christ if I do not represent Him in my own home – period. Another great command of the Bible is to “Direct your children onto the right path, and when they are older, they will not leave it.” (Proverbs 22:6, NLT) If I fail at this, how can I truly “disciple” other women? If I don’t do this well, how will the next generation and the generations to come “taste and see” that the Lord is good?
The Great Commission starts here.
I’m so lucky and excited and thankful that I get to go to Nepal this week and live out my passion for discipling the women of the nations. I cannot wait. But as I begin to do this more and more and see the results of so many years of praying and hoping and dreaming, I commit to stay grounded in my call at home first.
I will model a life in Love with Jesus for my children. I will love them and discipline them and, by the grace of God, point them to Christ. This is my first and most important mission field. I won’t always do it perfectly, sometimes I will totally mess up, but I am committed to submitting to the Lord and doing my best.
I will disciple the nations.
Step one: I must disciple my daughter and my son.
Big-dreaming moms, I dare you to make this commitment with me. Your dreams will not diminish if you do. They will expand. Trust God. Trust His way. And enjoy the adventure of a discipling motherhood.